December 6 2001 11.31 AM

i am very excited to see Harry Potter again. Keren and i are going to try to catch an afternoon show at the Meridian 16 or at Pacific Place. until then, we are going to eat at the honeyhole, probably, and go christmas shopping. its funny, i've never been worried about giving anybody a present during the holidays. i dont spend time on its "meaning," and i personally dont care. during the past couple of years i have developed into a not very materialistic person. i realized this when i was packing to go to Savannah. i didnt really bring all that much with me. (it seemed like a lot, but i sent a lot of it home, too :) and mostly, it was clothes. i like clothes. that is something that i /am/ materialistic about.) i like to give gifts and i like to recieve them, but i dont care at all what it is anymore. i used to. i dont now. i am asking my parents for one thing: a camera flash. that list used to be two things: a camera flash and a cell phone. but my mom and i decided that a pager would be better while in Savannah, and i can get that for myself. my mom told me that she doesnt want anything. i asked her if she would be mad if i got her something, and she said "probably." but she would also be really upset if i /didnt/ get her anything. thats how different my mother and i are. i really wouldnt care one way or another if i got anything for christmas, as long as me and the people i care about are happy, warm, healthy and fed. and if they werent, that would be what i would want. putting "meaning" into gifts is stupid and time consuming, unless it just happens upon you. such as a present that i got for a friend from SCAD, i found something having to do with The Grinch that she would like very much. i didnt go looking for it. it just appeared. convienence is my inspiration!