last night, before the party, Arlo yelled at me on the phone. he called me at 4 to ask when we were going to Michaels, which of course had been canceled 5 days before. (but he didnt bother calling before that.) i told him that since he made it PERFECTLY clear that night last week that he would rather smoke weed than hang out with his friends, i went ahead and made new years plans without him. (when i told him that if he was going to come to Michael's house (when it was still happening) that a concensus was reached of the anti-marijuana type.) he got pouty and hung up. about five minutes later he called back to tell me that he /never/ said anything like that. in tears, i reminded him otherwise, playing back exactly what he had said. he proceeded to yell at me, that he has so much shit and that he doesnt need this from his one real friend and blah blah blah hang up.

i dont know. if i'm questioning the worth of a friendship (the strain it puts on me vs. the benefits) and if it hurts me just to think about him, its not really worth it, is it?